[#01] At 11:10pm on Dec 31, I Deleted 15 Years of My Life

Drastic action for an addiction that held me captive for 15 years.

It was 11.10pm on Dec 31, 2025 and I just wanted to end it.

The addiction that had held me captive for 15 years, stealing my time, fracturing my presence with family and my own sense of self - it was time to finally end it and close that chapter forever.

As I sat in the caravan glued to my computer screen, pulling my hair out in frustration – asking why does it have to be this hard?

How could I do this?

And all of a sudden – in a moment of clarity – I saw the end.

I knew just how to do it.

I logged in.

Added a new email

Reset my password.

Followed the prompts.

Was I sure?

Did I really want to wipe out the last 15 years?

There had been so many amazing memories.

New friends.

Lots of learning.

But there’s also been fear, judgement and that undeniable feeling that nothing felt authentic.

Everything I’d created was out of my own sense of societal expectations and it all felt so constructed.

It just didn’t feel right anymore. Truth be told it never felt right because I wasn’t listening to my own intuition.

I’d done what I was told.

So after much frustration, anticipation and an overwhelming sense of holy crap! am I really doing this????

I pressed the button and deleted 15 years of memories, connections, content, constructed social media posting to fit into a norm

Facebook and Instagram gone forever!

Not archived.

Deleted!!!

Having spent literally thousand of dollars – actually more like $100K+ I was left with a sickening thought …

How the hell do I grow an online business without social media?

As I sit here writing this #1 Newsletter for 2026 …

The answer is ...I’m not 100% sure but it certainly feels like I’ll be stepping back in time to explore the ‘old fashion’ world of blogging.

Yes that’s right – blogging.

I remember when I was in my first digital coaching sessions the coaches were talking about how they had used blogging as a way to build their audience and business.

They explained that the requirements of a successful blog were great copy writing skills, topics specifically targeting your desired audience, consistency and SEO (search engine optimisation), and it often took time.

It was agreed that blogging was a way to establish your expertise, build trust, create shareable and searchable long lasing content on your own site but it took a long time to get traction and monetise.

Social media was presented as a quick and easy way to get in front of literally thousands of people every single day.

If you’re anything like me though, social media can be all consuming, exhausting and steal the essence of who you are and what you want to say.

The biggest fear with taking the blogging approach are the multitude of limiting beliefs that I created at high school:

I’m not a writer
I’m not creative

I hated English class. I hated the read pen marking out all my grammatical errors and the feedback that I hadn’t developed characters or presented my argument well. And honestly, my marks reflected my attitude.

The thing was, I was great at Maths and all my other subjects, and more often than not I topped those classes.

My fear with English was of not being good enough and being teased because I didn’t get top marks. That fear wasn’t unfounded because I was definitely a target for teasing (back then teasing was what we now call bullying) when I wasn’t perfect or the best in the class or on the sports field.

That teasing can leave long lasting fears and behavioural habits.

And now they rare up again and are ever present from being online over the past 10 years...

Who will read what I write?
What will they think about it – and worse still what will they think of me?
Will readers come back for more?
What if they hate me and tell me so?

Fear of judgement steals your true self.

It’s the fear of not being good enough as a business owner, coach, mentor and blogger, as a mother, partner, friend.

However, with the world going off on a crazy tangent, I’ll be letting go of all the societal expectations that have held me back – all my life!

My intention is to listen to my own intuition so I can be aligned with my values, energy and purpose.

I’ll be sharing my thoughts and content on my website – not some censored, algorithm driven platform influenced by government and political agendas.

So join me on this journey into the wilderness of life without social media and let’s see where it takes us.

If you’re interested or curious, or champing at the bit to let go of Meta and other big tech that are quietly harvesting your data and creating a digital profile of you to sell to government or the highest bidder, you might like to grab my book “Alternative Digital Platforms – Escaping Big Tech Without Losing Your Digital Life”.

The book in only $27AUD and outlines the way you are being tracked and traced, and the ways to protect yourself online with alternative platforms that are privacy conscious and often free.

Oh, and when I do new editions those who have purchased will get the updates for free.

I’ll leave you with that for now …

Categories: : Online Business, Self Healing